Sunday, May 22, 2011
i just sat here for like 30mins bawling my eyes out after watching glee. losing someone is never EVER fun. its in fact very very painful. watching glee made me think so my grandpa :( he was so special and left too quickly, im sure he's somewhere happier, away from all the pain/paranoia and worry he was experiencing here. he never did make it to melbourne to meet my friends or let alone see the other house we've had or that my parents owned. but im so glad i was the lucky one chosen to be by his side during his last few minutes - it meant the world. im sure god has other plans for him, he's probably been sent off as a fairy god father somewhere to put a smile on the faces of the less fortunate & im sure he's watching all of us from heaven :') i miss him so much aaahhh :(

well that being said, its during horrible times like those that make you realise the friends you should keep by your side, friends who would put everything down to be with you even on christmas, friends who would cry with you cause they can feel the pain you're feeling, friends who would give you hugs during which you can feel like you're never going to be alone cause they'll never let you go, a friend who would make long distance international calls while she was holidaying in europe and the list just goes on and on and on. that huge event has practically determined and made it clearer to me as to who my best friends are. religion wise im still confused/ and a little lost but have in fact done a lot of thinking about it the past few days, i believe there is a god out there we can count on to show us who we are, show us the way and show us who we can count on. hence the 2 best friends in my life who are practically my other half and the fairy god mothers in my life sent from heaven whom i am SO lucky to have. the only 2 friends who has been through the worst and back with me and the only two friends i can say "i love you" to and truly mean every single word.